Anecdotes and Realizations

We went to Westside and Landmark the other day, for some 'birthday shopping'. I realised that while I am much more confident being myself, I still feel judged all the time. I wonder when it is that I began feeling that. 'Log Kya Kahenge' is unfortunately a big thing for me, in trivial matters mainly.  So, I was browsing through the range of clothes by Bombay Paisley and then I began thinking. I can't spend 2000 on clothes. I don't NEED it. People will think I am spoilt. I ordered some things for myself for MY birthday, and I felt a little guilty. 'Spoilt!' 'Inconsiderate' the voices echoed in my head. My parents are the most incredible people, who want you to be yourself and have fun with life. They keep telling me to work on Deservability.  I did not get everything I really wanted yesterday. Only what I thought was an appropriate amount. On top of that was the guilt of not studying a few days before the exams. Even though, I have already finishe...

Here's to all the darling dreamers With fire in their souls And who fail to see the world When they are lost in their creation To those who cannot see Why others do not see There is another way Another way to do it right To those who understand That right and wrong, or good and bad Are all points of view,  As long as we do what we know we want to do To those who sing their blues away And dance it out everyday And feel the rhythm shake  And those who have the guts to take A new step or a new way A way to make it through the day Without losing who you are But, jumping, sprinting far Get Set, go! To those who wake up with an urge To show the world who you are What it is that makes your blood boil And your feet come alive To those who have an excitement in their gut And crack their knuckles , ready to go Who have something to say And cannot wait to roar To those who know that they may lose But choose not to care What the non-dreamers think  For it is not their world to rethin...

 I recently watched 'Main Hoon Na' with Mama. Timepass masala movie. I liked Sanjana's line 'Atleast usey mere kapdo se pyar nahi hai' . Something for Anjali from Kuch Kuch Hota Hai to learn from.  I immediately fell in love with the song Chale Jaise Hawaiyen. I flow with the wind, like a butterfly in a garden, like a bird in the sky!  Also, Vasundhara Das' voice is quite fun! 'It's the Time to Disco' really was what it was thanks to her. The lyrics go on : ' Koi Roke Koi Aaye, Kitna Bhi Mujhko Samjhaye Main Na Sunoongi Kabhi Apni Hi Dhun Mein Rahti Hoon Main Pagli Hoon, Main Ziddi Hoon, Kahte Hain Ye To Sabhi ' Love it! Apni hi dhun mein rahti hoon!!