Anecdotes and Realizations

 I thought I was out of cryptic notes and I am Somehow this knife it don't hurt It seems to collapse in on itself And I've hurt before And the memories of pain still flash and I don't have it all sorted out but darling, one thing's for sure You're the ex who'll never leave You're the best friend who hates on me You're the one who makes me want to scream You're the one who no longer has a say on me Taylor might write songs about her boyfriends but the best one I've read was the one with blood in the title If you can teach me how to fight, then one day I'll be a pro Till then, its au revoir my friend

 i was still on the fence 'bout you thought you would change, for the good but I didn't know, that your heart was ice cold and I really must thank you For the validation you gave You've only confirmed the rumours I'd spread in my head I still had my hope out for you but you've broken it But somehow I feel better than ever because now its not a waiting game you've shown us your true colours and they're black and red  and you've shown me your false lovin' and it's just like the devil so could I say thank you? to you, the devil on my shoulder I'll see you never, but I must say you've made this skin much tougher than it was so thanks, but i don't need you to stay

 and everyone's looking all concerned at the mess left by a few broken words and i wasn't supposed to let her in my head but what could i have done instead? and my sister's all worried she wants me to get help and my parents' are all blurry they don't know what they said and my friends do they know we aren't friends anymore? and myself does she know i don't like her anymore? because when the pain, it doubles down,  i can't hear a single sound so i did what i had to do to make it all easier for you and trust me, i wouldn't say it if i could keep it for a minute in and now i'm finally learning that some people don't change but there's a scorpion in my life and she stings me everytime and it's time for me to hop  out of her control so i'm taking my life back and i'm trying to fix the cracks but i'll see you on the other side and i won't look to my side