Anecdotes and Realizations

 We went to Himalaya Book Store as I earned a small salary for doing design work for Mama. I found these small, cheap canvases for 40 rupees and picked up two. I like this idea as with a large space I often feel flustered. I had initially planned to draw something from a tutorial online, but then I didn't feel like it.  There is one thing I can always draw - an eye. So I drew an eye and an eyebrow with pencil. Now I didn't know what to do. I draw one wavy line - leading to several more and then I thought - This looks like hair! I added locks and a nose. Before I started painting, I took a picture..I was sure of my ability to mess it up! Luckily, it turned out great. Could be my best one yet. Initial After Catalogue picture  I knew I didn't want just black hair. This girl was so cool! I love the colours. I didn't mix them fully on purpose..I like this unevenness. I was sure that I wanted the girl to have my coloured skin - more coffee-like though. I tried giving her eye ...

 Found some Haikus I wrote last year. They are a little cheesy.  Routinely they shake  Off their worries,their tears as Protectors do Gentle and nimble The wind moves so calmly says Is it serendipity?  Why are plants alive If they were to be eaten By mankind and all I say it is black Even if you show me how It is still not white Run free like the bird So i run, stop, turn  to see Home? I cannot see NUmber, what is it?  Measure of intelligence?  NO understanding Eight rupees is much I retain the coins with me I give just pink notes Birds chirp for they seek Attention, show their beauty Muted by screens Take baths in chlorine And nature is appeased,we Do not recognise water Salty ocean runs My feet, I feel enveloped This is blissful life Identity feels Trapped and limited to me I am energy What is Anjali Labelled for life, trapped in a Box, is there more me ? Everyone hates me She said it but no one said it They truly love her Cold is acerbic Yet it feel...

 Shortly after watching the movie, and feeling slightly disappointed with the ending, I had printed out quotes to stick around my room. I picked some from the movie - 'It's  Not About Deserve, It's about what you believe.' Now, it took me a while to process that.  I was thinking once more about the persecution that has been going on in the country for a while. There are so many rumours going around about how this group has always hated us or how it does not belong.  To combat this, I've always tried to come up with an equal argument. Trying to prove how their facts aren't true or that we can't judge based on the past. Then, I realised that this is far beyond that.  I believe in 'Just leave me alone!' Pretend that these people are horrible. That they do hate us. Does that make it okay to persecute them? They may be terrible people, who may or may not deserve this treatment. But, it's not about DESERVE, it's about what we as a nation believe in...

 With the experience I have amassed in 8 months, I was rethinking my blog post on Filling in the Blanks. Remaining in the question - seems to be a lot of people's thing. What is the need to take a stand? I don't need to take a stand.  I get where that comes from. Especially with all the political wars going on around us. But my question to you is - Is not taking a stand aiding the enemy?  Let's say its election time. Party X is horrible, a total Big Brother, but has several supporters and is likely to win. Party Y is not that great either, but they have some semblance of kindness. You go to the booth, decide you don't want to be ruled by either and vote N/A.  To drink or not to drink? Or should I just eat? Tell me, should you remain in the question or should you take a stance? This sort of aligns with one of the logical fallacies Inder Uncle told me about. The 'If you're not with us, you are against us'. But if the us is horrible, shouldn't it work out l...

Perhaps as a result of the course, I have been having a lot of fun in life. I have started learning German on Duolingo which is a lot of fun. 10 minutes a day. I am taking a writing course on Udemy by Shani Raja which I will write about soon. I paint, I write, I read the newspaper. I even started Bal Adjoba's Book of Knowledge collection. School started on the 4th. It has been a little busy but I am having fun with everything! I realised that the only reason that I ever disliked school is the 'compulsory' aspect of it. Thinking of school like something of a voluntary course has made it more fun. I exercise with these Zumba or kickboxing stuff online which is fun. I also want to learn about Quantum Physics after I saw a TED-Ed video on the twin paradox and one on Schrodinger's cat.  Time to get up and get moving Zindagi! I have started watching 'Friends' which is some timepass. I am always searching for new activities to try out. TV is something so easy and the t...

 As part of my 'Introspection Summer', I signed up for three courses on Udemy, and completed one. 'Existential Philosophy' by Karim Benammar. It not only provided clarity as to existential crises and purpose, but opened up a whole new world of freedom and choice.  Why are we alive? There are two questions that we seek the answers to. How to make a living and How to give shape to our life. We have answered the first question through careers, and providing for our families. We have a world of abundance, where survival is no longer our primary purpose. We have time and energy to do other things, which brings us to the question 'How do we give shape to our life?' Throughout our lifetime we are simply becoming who we are. We are free to live authentically. We are free to sculpt our life, but that is a responsibility, and newsflash says - 'That's scary!'. Why are you alive? That question can make your life meaningful and enjoyable. The answer is to b...